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I'm 16 now. [18 Dec 2006|04:20am]
Seriously thinking about starting a video blog.

Whats your opinion?
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[06 Dec 2006|02:33am]
I met a boy who gives me butterflies.
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saturday morning [28 Nov 2006|05:16am]

i am running a 5k thingy with alison so i can get a free shirt

i dunno how much 5k is or what the run is for
but im all for it

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[23 Nov 2006|05:44pm]
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This past week... [22 Nov 2006|06:55pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

...has been amazing.

I've been hanging out with Gabby alot this week, and she's a total badass. We click, haha! We also both appreciate the beauty of Danny Jones.

Maybe we'll get an appartment.

Then, we will go to England and steal some wallets and touch some McPenis.

Haha, yessss.


Chris was talking his shit, and saying he was gonna kick my ass, but said that if I won, I could touch his hipbones.

So of course as soon as the timer started I went at it.

I got 4900 points, and I made Solar Captain! Unh, suck on that! 

I think that I might want to have a Lazer Tag party for my 16th birthday.
I'm keeping that in mind.

If you wanna come, lemme know.

Other than all that, I'm ready to make a big change in my life. One of my friends, who I love so much no matter what, got into some trouble. He's pretty much screwed. So when he gets out, I want to be completely clean and sober, and busy with my job and school.

I wanna do it for him and for me. Mostly for me.

aim- fknshtduude (I'm gonna be using this screen name from now on.)
msn- fknshtduude@hotmail.com

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My ongoing list of reasons why I should move to the UK. [11 Nov 2006|06:54am]
[ mood | chipper ]

My ongoing list of reasons why I should move to the UK.

1. McFly releases all their shit in the UK months before they release it here.
2. I would get to see the Babycakes video on TV.
3. They still air episodes of Earthworm Jim in the UK.
4. They've got castles.

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I don't have much to say. [10 Nov 2006|08:45am]
Today is Friday.

I'm waiting to see what goes down this weekend.

As in, maybe a fight?

Am I gonna see a fight?

I sure hope so.

I made more icons.
Of me.

I FREAKING LOCKED MYSELF OUT OF MY ROOM! I dont have a key to the door either. So I dont know what to do.

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I'm so hating right now. [07 Nov 2006|11:22pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

Friends. What the hell are they?

I'm starting to believe I have yet to come upon the real thing.

The way I see it, all of my so-called friends are full of shit in their own ways. I don't know what to do anymore. Yes, I love hanging out with them, cracking jokes, getting high. BUT I DON'T WANT TO DO THAT ANYMORE! I want to be sober, I'm starting my life now. Getting a job, going to college. So, if I'm not off cracking jokes and getting high all the time... where does that leave my friends? What do I do with them? Do I really need them?

Maybe this is all just me over thinking things because I'm frustrated and upset at the moment, steaming angry in fact... but don't they always say that a drunken mans words, are a sober mans thoughts?

I'm no longer blinded by my need for happiness, and I can't decide if I'm now blinded by my resentment towards my "friends."

I guess I just need someone to tell me its okay to only worry about me. If I don't look after me, who will?

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9mm, and a three piece suit. [07 Nov 2006|03:31am]
[ mood | Alison insulted me. ]

Not much to say today. Nothin has changed.

I stole the laptop and brought it out to the garage for better signal. So I'm laying in my bed downloading the Paris Hilton sex tape as we speak.

"Well I know I shouldn't care but I do and I don't
And I always crack a smile when I see your punk rock clothes
And you try try but you never fit in and
You're never going to so pack it up pack it in, so there...

Steve took three or four Heather took more.
Lit a cigarrette and now they're walkin out the door
With a semi automatic and a ski mask on
They look to one another and they say to themselves "What fun".

Well I never want to bother and I never want to hover
Over his or her affairs because THAT'S NOT FAIR
And it seems to me that you're running out of time
And it seems to me like you're never going to do what's right

Jack dropped 21, Jill 22.
The look in his eye said "Brother whatcha going to do
With a 9mm and a three piece suit?"
They look to one another and say "hey motherfucker,
Who's the fool?"

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Dawson's Creek [06 Nov 2006|03:45am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Oookay. I've been finding myself watching this show for the past few nights. Even though its completely ridiculous and dramatic.

Tonight's episode is about ecstacy. I used to watch these shows and think, "Wow, they make it look really bad." Now I'm realizing that it really is that bad. I guess once you get involved you get caught up, and start telling yourself its not that bad. Then when you look back, you're just like, oh man. I asked someone about brain "sells" the other day. I think that was enough proof that drugs are bad.

I seriously need to start cleaning up my act. I know I'm not really that bad into it, and I don't have any addictions to tobacco/alcohol/narcotics, but I'm fully convinced I am addicted to the rush that it gives me, sneaking around, doing stuff I'm not supposed to do, and I think that addiction is just as bad.

When Angelo was talking this weekend about wanting to become an anesthesiologist, it made me think, "Well damn, what am I gonna do?" I mean, I've had the dream of being in the entertainment business for as long as I can remember, but now that I'm done with high school, I need to start being specific, and take the steps toward getting to that point.

My mom is making me sign up to start taking college classes in January. I'm freaking 15 years old, I'm supposed to be a sophomore. I'm gonna start college before my older senior friends? Something about that makes me uneasy. I mean, yeah, it sounds like a big accomplishment but I'm worried I'm throwing myself out there and into the world to fast! I wanna grow up, and get a job, and a degree, but damn, why so fast? I'm turning sixteen in 2 months, and starting the rest of my life in 3.

So, I guess now is as good a time as any to start living right.

I just wish I knew how to make these decisions, and drop the people I need to. I just hate to leave the ones I love. Cause my friends mean the world to me, probably more than they should.

Maybe I'll visit Max, and ask him for advice. He sure figured out how to leave.

"I remember back when parties were birthday cakes and bowling alleys. Now they're adventures that can kill you."
-Dawson (The one with the creek.)

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average. [03 Nov 2006|09:40am]
[ mood | confused ]

So I got my SAT scores back today. I got a 1580. I'm probably gonna retake them so I can do better.

Everyone is going to party this weekend.
I think I'm gonna stay at home.

I'm feeling kinda down.

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Things to do before I die: [20 Oct 2006|05:39pm]
This is DEFINATELY going to be an ongoing list that I change and stuff over the course of my life.

1. Have two kids, if the first one isn't a boy, adopt a boy and name him Kyle-Carter Fenton.
2. Go to a Candy Expo and eat sour candy till I puke.
3. Play Cricket with a famous British pop star/actor.
4. Have an intelligent conversation with an Allen. (I'm pretty sure that would stun every single one of my chick friends.)
5. Conduct a paranormal investigation.
6. Do a stand up comedy show.

If any of you can and, are willing to help me out with one of the above mentioned goals, then please, do so.
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I wanna go to Numbers. [20 Oct 2006|05:27pm]
These past couple weeks, have been the weirdest of my life. I've hung out with people I never thought I would, I did stuff I promised myself I wouldn't. My room is trashed.

Why can't I hangout somewhere besides my house?

I need to get a house with some rich fuckers and throw parties, so then I won't have to clean up all by myself, hah.

So, McFly has a couple really weird music videos that I am totally in love with. Ballad of Paul K, which is really creepy, and "Nightmare Before Christmas" like. Also, Room on the 3rd Floor, which is them, made into plastic, and they're like, dismembered heads. Haha, weeeird. I have them on my MySpace, so go watch them. Here.

Anything else?

I dunno,
I might post more later.

I don't have plans for tonight, so I'm gonna be on the computer probably.

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The Libertines [13 Oct 2006|07:42pm]
Discovered them today.
I'm liking them, I do believe.
Um, supyoda?

Tonight, is the first Friday night that I haven't gone out partying with my friends, since June. It's 7:30, and I'm already tired. I have to wake up and be AT Clear Creek High School to take my SATs, at 7:30 in the morning. I'm slightly nervous, definately not very excited. I don't know if I'm prepared. I hear its not that hard of a test, but I'm worried I won't remember the math formulas, or vocabulary, and I have NO idea how to write this essay thing. Maybe I'm screwed, maybe I'll try again. Maybe I'll ace it. Either way, I'm SO up for partying tomorrow night, after my test. Who wants to treat me to a night of fun in celebration? Let me know kids!

"Since you said goodbye, polka-dots fill the sky, and I don't know why."
-The Libertines
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